I talked with my mom for a bit on Friday when I took Chad in to work third shift and thankfully she sounded okay. She said things and said them in a way that made me believe that I don't have to worry TOO much about how she will handle the events of the past week with her depression. That was my biggest concern since her call on Thursday night.

She told me that she'd probably stay with one of his sisters for a few days while she makes calls about other options. She said that she'd give me the number to where she stays and the times that it would be okay to call. It just sucks that I am not sure when that call will come with no way to get into contact with her until she calls me. But I just have to hope for the best.

We're officially dedicating our show on July 27 to Rob.

I still worry that I don't know when I will hear from her. But I told her that I'd see what my schedule looked like and we'd have her down for a day&night of movies and food and stuff which she sounded very happy about it. Just have to see how my schedule looks after I hear from her and know when she'll be available. We were overdue for a get together anyway, honestly.

Work sucks.

New manager seems pretty cool. Today was my first day working with him. He has A LOT to learn but hey, who doesn't. It's just weird that I already know 75% more about the store and its operation than he does. But he'll catch on. Hopefully quickly. I informed him that I had signed the paper to be the Safety Manager but since I didn't get a raise from it and it's a lot of extra responsibility that I would like to step down unless I get money for it. Right now even 25 cents per hour is a big deal. But right now I am working my ass off. Literally. It's shrinking, I believe. And I am responsible for more than I should be simply because I do work my ass off. There's no incentive nor motivation for me to do more there let alone with any enthusiasm. And there's so much stuff going on outside of work that it's becoming ridiculous! One reason I was sticking with this job was that we felt that it was a good job to get time off when we need it for shows since they make us money as well. But with the constantly changing schedules..and I mean that quite literally as we get called in for extra shifts and called in early for our shifts and stay late...it is becoming much more of a hassle than a "9-5" job would be.

In the next week or so I am really going to voice my discontent and see if it either gets me more money...or just gives me the motivation to find something better. Well..attempt to find something better. I am just getting constantly pissed off with my job and I don't make enough to put up with constant extreme frustration from the job. Where there's a will..there's a way. I just feel that any decently paying job around here requires a related degree. Usually a BA or BS. I have neither. Just an Associates Degree which apparently equals the sum of a pile of dog shit hah But mark my words..something will happen. Even if I have to move somewhere else when the lease is up here. Hell..try the other part of the country.

Well I am off to test out my guitar that I rewired and restrung to see if it is working up to par so that I can use it for our show on Wednesday for a couple of the songs. I hope everything's going alright with all of you.

Goodnight.

It sucks when you can't get someone when you want to talk to someone. Good luck with getting a pay rise and with your show.
» Nuttz on 2007-07-10 05:34:42

You deserve a better job than what you're at now...they sound like COMPLETE bastards, if you ask me...move on!
» lazypuppy on 2007-07-10 06:52:57

Hey I just read about what happened. I'm so sorry. My coworker passed away suddenly from a heart attack a couple of years ago. It was pretty weird but the week before he died he was telling my boss that he wished that he could see his son whom he kind of wasn't there for when he was younger. He hadn't talked to him in ages. He was a swim coach at a college nearby. So my boss took him down there and they watched part of the swim meet and then he went down and talked to his son and apologized and everything... then he passed away like a week later, totally unexpected. The son came up and thanked my boss for convincing him to come around and talk to him one last time.
My thoughts and prayers will be with you and your mom. I hope you find a better job, too.
» Zanzibar on 2007-07-10 11:08:09

Hope everyone is doing ok. take care
» Princess_00 on 2007-07-11 01:03:09

oh, dear...
I just read what happened. My condolences to you and your mother. I hope she feels better soon. That ge-together of yours should do her good.
I wish I could go to that show of yours, but...eh. ;]
» Silver-dot- on 2007-07-11 02:34:55

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