Don't know what the subject of this posting is about. I think, at least for now, I may very well stick to nonsense subjects that I think sound cool. Whether or not you think they sound cool is of no importance. But it would be cool if you agree to some extent haha

Work sucked today. In fact it sucked so much today that that statement could be enough for this entry alone. But I shall continue onward.

I made it through the day putting in a handfull of hours for which I will not be paid. Part of it came at the end where I had to deliver double the meds. So instead of being able to watch the third period at least of the Flyers/Canadiens game, I missed the whole thing.

Which brings me to my next point...

The Philadelphia Flyers are the NHL's Eastern Conference Champions! They beat the Canadiens 4 games to 1 in the best-of-seven series to earn the right to face the Chicago Blackhawks in the Stanley Cup Finals!! Unfortunately the Blackhawks have home ice advantage throughout the series but a Game 1 and/or Game 2 win could remove that advantage. It should be a great, hard played series. The Flyers haven't won the Stanley Cup in my lifetime and I'd loooove for that to change this year!

The Phillies won their second World Series in my lifetime two seasons ago. The Eagles..well they at least made it to a Super Bowl in my lifetime. Technically the Eagles were also in the Superbowl the year that I was born against the Raiders but that was about 4 months before I was born. Should we count it??

I am still trying to get around to starting the publishing phase on my novel. I may get a start on it this week but with my suddenly expanding plans this weekend for my birthday weekend would put a hold on it so I may wait until the beginning of the following week to start that. Too bad the 'editors' I had helping me dropped of the project. Would have saved me time hahah But I will do my best to surge ahead with it. I will then also have to buy a printer so that I can print out the copies of my manuscript to send out for publisher consideration. Some may accept it digitally but I want to have it available in hard copy as well.

In the comments to my previous entry I was asked what the book was about. I wanted to address the question directly through their comments but I thought that I might as well just put it here. So hopefully anyone that was wondering about it will read it here. And...

Unfortunately there isn't too much I can tell so as to not give it anything too important away. Somehow everything built up very well on everything else and each piece hinges completely upon the others. So much happens but it's all so interconnected that I can't even divine what parts I could cite without ruining some part of it. Here's what I can tell you though.

The beginning of the story was devised during a walk through a dark neighboorhood on an even darker street at about 3am. I was listening to music as I usually do. And a thought occured to me...what would REALLY scare the crap out of me at that moment?

I thought of the answer. It didn't give me much to go on until I decided to write a horor/suspense novel. I didn't know whether or not I could still use this idea as the basis for a novel. But then over the next few nights my mind automatically fleshed out some spine tingling visual ideas that ended up working very well within the context of the idea I had gotten during my walk that night. It involved ordinary moments but that is how you can really affect people in print and movies. Make people think "Wow...I do that every day! Maybe this could really happen! Oh wait! I am doing it right now..it could be happening right now!"

Let me just say that I ended up freaking myself out with some of these ideas. It seemed to me that I was keeping a watchful eye out. And then it occured to me. That's how I wanted to affect readers! I just had to write the scenes to truly bring those events to life in the reader's mind to try to create the same sense I had gotten while imagining this.

After more thought I came up with an ending that I really liked. And then in my head I began to flesh out ideas of how I can go from the beginning that I had to the end I came up with by following the path created by all of those scenes that had popped so naturally into my head.

The weird thing was that it became less of a strictly horror/suspense story. And before I knew it there were some social and perhaps economic and maybe even political (but not necessarily politics as the word would make you think of them) statements being made. After completing the novel I felt that some readers would think that my story began around some kind of moral/morals and built up from there. But that is far from true. It just turned out that getting from point A to Z by way of all the points in between painted a map of different ideas. But the great thing was that I believe that it makes the novel even more effective at making the readers feel something.

The difficult part, if there was one, was trying to maintain enough of the horror/suspense feel with all of the other feelings that cropped up throughout the novel. And I think I may have outdone my greatest expectations! Perhaps it's just me tooting my own horn but I certainly hope that others feel the same.

I will definitely keep posting how far along I get in editing after I actually start the process and keep discussing the topic. I will then keep anyone who is interested in reading about it updated as far as the attempts to get published go. And whenever I can get it published one way or another I shall keep all of those who care in-the-know about the process from there.

Lastly I posted an ad on Craigslist for a drummer and a bassist. It was long. Duh. When is anything I write not long? This entry just goes to prove my point! But all of my musician posts are long to include as much necessary info as is possible. It helps not only eliminate the need for a million e-mails going back and forth answering the same questions but it helps weed out the ones that we wouldn't want to have audition anyway.

I am not sure how this will just yet or if I'll even really get any responses. But I do believe that my explainations and descriptions should ensure that any responses I get are from musicians that can help us create the sound we've always needed.

I can't sit by idly and continue thinking of when I should start the search again. I know that this band is meant to go on. It is meant to grow and make people grow with its music. It's what I've wanted for oh so long. And it's one of the things that made my mom most proud of me. Not the possibility of fame or stardom stemming from it. But how hard I work at it to achieve a dream and how well I use all of my combined skills to further the band.



I believe that's it. My eyes hurt. My fingers hurt. My brain hurts.

Goodnight my fellow NuTang'ers.

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Hello friends. I wanted a new layout after my long time away. I decided to go with something incredibly simple. Perhaps I will jazz it up but I didn't have the time for that now. I will admit that it was very hard to change. The Phillies World Series Champs design held a lot of meaning and it was the one I was using before my mom passed away. But I've changed it. Please let me know if the text is an okay size as I am using a large HD television as my monitor and it looks readable to me. I will change it if necessary though. I want this to be as readable as possible. Duh.

So much has changed over the almost year since I last updated. And yet the result is that everything is nearly the same. Instead of going into great detail i will create a list of some of the major points.

• Having lost my mom still hurts.


• Being 29 was okay. Pretty much like any other year.


• Been in more contact with my half-sister after 6 or so years of separation. Great thing.


• Gone through a couple relationships


• New position at work. It's really tough with my physical ailments but I keep pluggin' away.


• After 8 years finally finished paying off my student loan.


• Realized just how many people have dropped out of my life over the years.


• Had a full lineup for the band. Recently made it just Chad and myself. Couldn't get the sound right. Starting from square one. More to come on this.


• Got to cheer another Phillies World Series. Alas not a win. Another hard situation with my mom not around.


• Currently cheering the great job by the Flyers in this year's playoffs. Currently one win away from the Stanley Cup Finals!


• No longer have the car from my previous post. Have a van that I love. Good: helps cary music gear around. Bad: still owe my sister a lot for it.


• Bought a new PC with 750gig HD and 6 gigs of RAM. Can finally do things I've been wanting to do for quite some time.


• Perhaps most important: I started and finished my first novel! (More below)

So yes, I finished my very first novel. Unfortunately it requires a good deal of editing. In order to write when I had the motivation and to keep writing when the ideas were following and connecting so naturally I wrote in marathon sessions. This lead to a lot of half-braindead mistakes which need to be fixed. Still trying to seek out help to help me edit it.

However I am incredibly proud of it after many people had more-or-less begged me for over 10 years to write a full novel. I'd had many ideas over the years but this was the first one where the plot became apparent to me from start-to-finish. It contains a lot points of personal significance including but not limited to the story starting on my birthday in 2008 and it coming to a conclusion on the day that my mom passed away.

Once I am able to finish editing it I will print and send the manuscript to regional and larger publishing houses and see what happens. If no one is interested I will save up to self-publish it. if I have to go that route it will be quite a while but as long as I am alive I swear that this novel will be published no matter which route I must pursue.

Larger publishing houses are weary of publishing an untested first-time author but it could be good enough on its own merit to receive publishing rights. If I have to do it myself I will keep a completely accurate log of sales and as much info about locations as such as I can and create neat charts and/or graphs depicting this information in an attempt to help pave the way for a second novel possibly being published upon completion.

These are my hopes.

If you came here and read this, I thank you. If you leave feedback I thank you for that ontop of the previous thanks.

I hope that I am able to keep this up from here on out. Relatively often if not constant updates.

Wish me luck.

Thank you.

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